Such a shame

The African black race has got to go back to God in prayers, as what we do to one another is a big shame!!!! We are killing one another, kidnapping one another etc!!! It is such a shame!!! There is no reason on earth why we should reduce ourselves to such a level!!! I am deeply ashamed of the recent kidnappings going on in Nigeria. Kidnapping for ransome. Even the ransome money is not used for anything tangible!!! When others are busy innovating, helping out their fellow citizens, the blacks are busy killing and dehumanising one another!!! Big Shame!!!

My thoughts!!!!

I have been very busy these past few months. A lot has happened. A Nigerian Man in Winchester attacked my sister. That really did hurt me. Some Nigerians attacked me last year also. The most painful part of the whole thing is that it was unprovoked attack. These guys just take one look at you and bang they just go mental. These Yoruba guys attacked me maybe because they saw me chatting with a white colleague of mine and they saw it as a let down (I really cant make excuses for such animalistic behaviour). My sister was just wearing her African attire and it attracted this Nigerian man who started chatting her up, she was not in the mood to be chatted up and bang he attacked her. It Was such a vicious attack that the police had to be called in by other people that witnessed the incident. It just made me wonder. Why do Africans hate themselves so much? These horrible people carry their hatred from Nigeria and take it with them to any country they go to. I felt so ashamed going through the details with the police, as I had to give a description. These guys that attacked me were speaking Yoruba with thick accent and were calling me names. I felt disgusted that people from my own country attacked me without any provocation.

I read in the papers how people are killing themselves in Northern Nigerian all in the name of religion. I was so disgusted. It seems the African man is willing and ready to kill his/her fellow in the name of anything be it religion, ethnic beliefs, pride, ego etc. There is much hatred in that land and that is what hold us back from developing. As long as there is no love then how can houses, infrastructure etc be provided? If we do not hold ourselves in high regards how can we make a change for everyone in the country or the continent? I just pray that families bring up their children properly, teaching them the value of dignity, honour and respect. And mothers please train your boys that it is wrong to beat a girl up and under no circumstances should a girl be attacked verbally or physically. Have a wonderful day!!!

State of the Mind!!!!!

I was so shocked to read on the papers that a Manchester United fan in Nigeria intentionally killed four people when he drove his bus into a crowd celebrating Barcelona's victory in the Champions League final. I honestly do not underrate the passion and loyalty that goes with being a supporter of a team. However, I am totally in shock and cannot understand why a human being in his or her right mind would kill others just because their views differ. This is to show that some people have not attained the civilised manner to handle situations. I mean, this is just a game. Many people were hurt their team did not win but did they all go killing others? Why did four people have to die over such trivial matter? I am just shocked beyond words. When others are busy inventing, innovating, looking out for their fellow citizens, some silly person is out there not handling his or her emotions properly. God have mercy!!!!

Now!!!!

I was going through my mail and I found out that my mail was hacked into and someone was sending mails to all my friends on facebook. I was not happy about this. It made me wonder about this big brother state era where many of us especially in the UK have ID cards or are made to have one. I shudder to think what will happen when someone gets hold of one's identity. I have nothing against ID cards as I have nothing to hide but my only fear is the safety of the storage of information.

Question!!!!

Hello everyone, I have been off blogging for some time now because I have been so busy with uni work. I was on the bus today thinking about this life. Life is such a beautiful gift. I appreciate God each morning I wake up and I am always very excited about what the day has for me. I wonder what life has in store for me whenever am sad, happy or excited. But I have to say that sometime, the thought of the future fills me with questions. Has anyone thought up the answer to the big question? What is life and what is true happiness? I leave it to you to figure out. Have a lovely day!!!!!

Madonna's adoption

I have read with so much interest the topic of Madonna's adoption of little Mercy. I wonder why there is so much fuss about adopting the child. Sometimes, I even wonder if all these "charities" and people making so much fuss truly mean well. Some people that call themselves "analysts" even try to highlight the negative aspect of adopting children from their own environment etc.

My worry is whether all this fuss has something to do with the fact that Madonna is adopting a black child. I sometimes wonder whether these so called "charities" are not using their own biased perception of the whole situation to make these assumptions that it is better to leave the child in "Africa". I don't understand why what supposed to be Madonna's business should turn out to be every body's business.

I fail to understand how Madonna's adoption of Mercy can be a bad thing. All I can see is that Madonna is giving Mercy a chance of a life time. Mercy will grow up in good environment, go to the best schools and hopefully be a role model. Madonna wants a daughter and not the whole village. She is already doing a lot for the community. Why should she answer to anyone why she is adopting an African child?

I am of the opinion that the best thing for mercy is not being left in an orphanage home with little love but being in a loving family and having the best life can offer. And that is what Madonna has to offer. All these so called people talking about leaving the little girl in Africa are just being biased for whatever reason which I will fail to mention. My question to all this, is why the fuss?

Soul searching

I have been doing a lot of soul searching recently. I am now asking myself lots of questions. Some questions or even most of the questions I come up with, I do not have an answer to them. I am looking at life, the world and the processes in it. I am doing some wondering also. I wonder this.... I wonder that.... I hope I find myself at the end of this soul searching journey. Are there any suggestions out there that can help me come to understand life? If you have the answer, please share!!!! Many thanks!!!!

Thanks giving

There are so many things to be grateful for. Sometimes, life throws different obstacles our way but the way ones handles these obstacles determines how they come out of it. It helps to believe in something or even have faith in something. I have lots to be thankful for. Every day, I know that some one looks out for me. Some one makes sure that nothing evil happens to me. I feel so special and loved that someone is watching over me. I cannot question the existence of God. I know in my life that God is alive and he lives. I am most grateful to God for knowing that his love is ever with me and my prayer is that you find that out for your self too. Have a fabulous day!!!!

My experience with Endoscopy

I just had an endoscopy done and I can say what an experience it was. I have been having problems with my chest and upper abdomen. The doctor told me that this is just acid reflux. What this basically means is that acid finds its way back to my guts. This can be pretty uncomfortable and sometimes painful. I sometimes get this burning sensation in my chest. My mind went through different scenarios. I was always at the net looking at other people’s symptom and comparing it to mine. Sometimes, the net does not really help as it has much information that can be pretty scary and not necessary the condition one has.

My doctor arranged for me to have an endoscopy because all the medication she has prescribed has not really taken care of the uncomfortable feelings I have in my chest. I must tell you that I was so scared. I thought of refusing but my doctor is just fantastic and she explained the procedure and that I have nothing to worry about. She said it has to be done so I can know what is really wrong with me.

I told my mum who joined me in prayers. She was scared of the procedure for me. Well, when anyone hears that some pipe will be going into their loved ones guts, that can be pretty frightening. My mum was pretty supportive and always encouraged me with prayers.

I got a letter from my consultant who sent me a leaflet of the process, my appointment day and a paper to fill in about my medical condition. I did all that. When I got to the hospital for the endoscopy, I was shaking like a leaf. I was so scared thinking of how I will cope with a pipe with camera going down my throat. An endoscopy is a procedure where the inside of one’s body is examined internally using an endoscope. Endoscopes can be inserted into the body through a natural opening, such as your throat or anus. I had a gastroscopy which meant putting the camera through my mouth down to my guts.

Some minutes before the proceedure, I was taken into this room were the proceedure was explained to me and I was told about the anaesthetic. I was told about the local anaesthetic, which will be sprayed into the back of my throat. I chose that because I want to be alert throughout the procedure. I was asked when I last had a meal. I told them about 10 hrs ago. In my leaflet, it said that one should not eat at least 7 hours before the procedure so as to have clearer visibility.

I was later called for the procedure. The nurses were fantastic. They made me feel relaxed. They made me laugh and when the consultant came to begin the procedure, I was so relaxed even though I was a bit scared. I was sprayed with the local anaesthetic. It felt minty. I was then told to rest on my left side. A mouth guard was placed over my teeth before the consultant put the endoscope into my mouth. When I saw the pipe my heart stared racing. I thought I was going to pass out. I was asked to swallow so as to help the endoscope pass into my oesophagus and down towards my stomach. I can honestly say I felt the pipe going down my throat to my stomach. The sensation nearly gave me a panic attack but I was surprised I was breathing and calm. Sometimes, I felt like throwing up and all I could hear was me burping. The consultant said this was normal as air was pumped through the tube and into my stomach to make it expand and the stomach lining easier to see. I will not say the procedure was painful but it was really uncomfortable. I am grateful to God for the life and the health given to me and I appreciate every day. Have a wonderful day and hope this is good information to those who want to know about gastroscopy or endoscopy.

Pushing it

I recalled the popular saying that goes ‘cut your coat according to your size’. I have always been a strong advocate of spending within my means. Thankfully, I am not one of those girls who go crazy for designer stuff (not that there is any thing wrong with loving designer stuff). I really envy those who can just go out and spend a fortune on shoes or bags without batting an eye lid. I wish I can do the same without feeling somewhat guilty. I noticed this behaviour in me since I came to the UK. To me, every penny counts. Being a self-sponsored student in the UK is not easy. I do not have the luxury of going out to clubs or bars because I could save that money and get some nice vegetable or food stuff in one of the supermarkets. I sometimes ask myself if studying abroad or doing a higher degree is the will of God for me. An answer I got was that the will of God is that one wills for him/her self.

It is like being in a wilderness all on my own sometimes. I really get all emotional and cry sometimes just having that burden of paying my fees. But no one but me is to be blamed. No one forced me to go further in my education. I wanted to. Doing my research in my home country would be a total disaster because of the amount of strikes that can prolong a 4 year course to 10 years (I am not kidding here). When I was doing my first degree in my country, I remember one strike that lasted almost a year and some months. It pains me the way things are run in my country.

I pray doing this higher degree pays off. I pray I get more than I have spent doing this degree. Well, I guess that I feel blue because I have just parted with another huge amount of money for the final year of my study. I am so proud I got this far. I am thankful to God for his mercies on myself and my loved ones. If you are planning to study abroad, good luck and make sure you save properly before embarking on your journey. Have a fantastic day!!!

2009 the great year!!!!!

Hello everyone? I hope everyone is already enjoying this New Year. Many people I have wished a happy new year think it is going to be a challenging year. I refuse to believe that because by nature, I am a very optimistic person. I know there might be some challenges such as things like my finances, good jobs etc. but I know and believe it shall be well. Don’t get me wrong; even though I am an optimistic person I am also a bit of worrier. My family knows that so what my mum did was to send me some motivational literature to read. In one section of the literature, it says no one gains anything by worrying. And then something brought my attention to a verse in Isaiah in the bible. That passage states that even when I go through the challenges of life, God will not let it swallow me. It also states that I am special and extremely loved by almighty God. That night I read this verse, I went to bed with a big smile on my face knowing that all is well. Why should I worry then? In fact worry is a destroyer in it self. I can agree with the statement that worry kills because when I worry, I panic and that really affects me both emotionally and physically sometimes.


For some people out there, they do not know what the year 2009 has in store for them. But what I can say to those who still have one fear or the other is that you should keep strong. Believe and proclaim it shall be one of the best years yet in your life. Easier said than done you might say. Yes, because you have no choice but to keep strong and positive. 2009 is going to be a great year and us and our loved ones shall live in good health and prosperity to give thanks at the end. Have a fabulous year.